A Letter to My Best Friend

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Dear Best Friend,

I want to thank you for being an amazing friend to me. You are one of the most important people in my life. Sometimes it is difficult to say all of this in person so I am writing this letter to you.

Our first meeting seven years back was very normal with nothing unusual about it, I never thought that one day we would be best friends. The frequency of our interactions increased and over a few months we became best friends.

Since then we have never been away from each other. You have always made me laugh to jokes that would seem lame, you have given me a safe place to cry, you have taken all my tantrums but never complained, you have always been there every time I needed you.

Starting from me pushing you to dance with a girl, you lecturing me about my life, all the juvenile fights that we have had to all the midnight calls, I think we have a come a long a way.

Our friends always asked us why were we not dating. We seemed compatible in every manner, I thought so too. But the only thing I could come up with was ‘I don’t want to ruin our friendship’. It was different for both of us, we knew that I was still holding on to a boy who was never really mine, maybe I was in love with him in some part of my heart. and you were looking for your ‘one and only’. We would always ignore others but continue to flirt with each other and joke about how it would be if we both would ever date.

Then the time came when I had to leave the city and you were the only person who wanted me leave because you knew what I was going through but at the same time you didn’t want me to leave you. You tried giving me hints about us dating and you always thought I was a hard nut to crack, but I was too scared to hurt you. I was not sure what I wanted at that time.

I moved to a different city, I was scared but you gave me the confidence to live by myself. We continued talking but somehow it did not feel the same, slowly our conversations moved from everyday to once a week to once a month. Then one fine day you told me that you were in a relationship, I was happy for you because you found your ‘one and only’ but my heart felt a slight pinch at that moment, something just felt different.

Since then everything changed, I knew I had to share my best friend and I wasn’t happy about it. Every time you tried telling me something, I always reciprocated in the opposite way. I wanted to tell you so many things.. well mainly just that I hated seeing you with someone else but something always held me back from telling you about how I felt.

You coming to the same city did not change much at all, but sometimes I still regretted not telling you what I felt. When I finally gave in to my emotions and realised how how badly you affect me, that’s when things began to change. I kept hoping that someday I would talk about my feelings and things would change and go back to being what I recognised as normal.

However, the realisation came in too late. Maybe I should have spoken about my feelings to you and just let it all out. Maybe we’d have started dating and seen how that went or maybe we’d remain friends and nothing would have changed at all .

I don’t know what is best for us, all I do know for sure is that I want us to be best friends forever. And our pact still remains the same, when we are 40 and still single (hopefully not) we will just be together, I doubt anyone else will be able to tolerate us then.

I am happy where we are today. We love and understand each other and we’re inseparable. You’re my go to person and that will never change. However, there are days when I look back and wonder how our lives would have changed if I’d have just taken the plunge and let my heart lead the way.

 

Love,

Your Best Friend

Some of us might feel that talking about our feelings is not essential but for those of you who feel it is important don’t wait for the right time to come. YOU make the right time, the ‘right time’ doesn’t just magically appear. We are in a generation where it’s ok and accepted for a woman to take the first step. Speak your heart out before it is too late and hopefully you’ll never have to write this letter to your best friend.